I don’t know… I don’t know anything these days. So many things have taken place over the last few years, so many changes. I lost my way then found a new way, then I’m turned around again. I only know one direction, forward. Forward is dictated by which way I’m facing.
I’m not sure what’s relevant anymore. My son, her, school, my health… I know I’m prioritizing pretty well though. My son and my health, at the moment are on top. I realized, not too long ago, not that I was putting anything before those things but that I was giving other things too much weight up against them. Things, I’m not quite ready to discuss because they are being worked out.
Trying to be a better man, I seemed to have lost that ferocity that some had come to associate with me. For too long I’ve been thinking win-win, forgetting sometimes someone has lose, often taking the loss. I’ve given up so much ground. I have so much to set right.
Today, I want so bad to create. I don’t know where to start, or how to go about it. I’ve loss the feel. I have some drafts here, started as early as 2008-9. I’m sure, for most, I can’t finish them as I originally intended. Which ever posts I complete, will likely take on a different meaning. I will leave whatever original text is there untouched.
I haven’t closed this blog, I seem to return every so often to seek self counsel as if dialing an old friend with which contact has lapsed. Thank you for being here.
