Last night, I had a wonderful night out with Tanya. Started out with a movie, Underworld: Rise of the Lycans — As a standalone I think it was alright, but as part of the Underworld trilogy or series, it disappointed me. She always seems to get the giggles when she’s with me. This time holding my pizza like a purse. Afterwards, we went to Better Burger in Chelsea, where we sat and talked for two or so hours.
We touched on a number of subjects including the way we’ve interacted with each other up until now, my current situation and relationships. Attachments, desires and needs were worked into the conversation.
Needy women… I mentioned that I was attracted to women who need me then she went into strong woman mode, I could never…
When I mentioned my attraction to women who need me, I wasn’t necessarily speaking of needy women. You can need without being needy in my opinion.
At this point in my life, I am looking for interdependence. Two completely whole, independent people, not supplementing, but sharpening… making each other stronger… better.
I have to get better for that though. I have to get myself to the point where I feel I am completely independent. I am having too many ups and downs at this stage in my life. I think I should be more stable.
Right now, I am feeling like the needy one. Thank you Tanya, for everything. For the movie, the dinner, the conversation. I appreciate it. Thank you!
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