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The Mood

I had a conversation with Lindsey recently about the general tone of my blog and the nature of its subject matter. She said that it made her sad. She is sad to read what my son and I are going through, with my unemployment situation, his mother and so on. I mean, it gets deeper than I have let on. I just don’t want to hit you, my readers, my audience, some of you… my friends with too much at once or before you have had a chance to digest.

While things seem and are pretty dire, I haven’t given up. While I may seem beaten, it isn’t in my nature to admit defeat. I can’t accept that there is no upward or forward movement for me. There is so much more to be had, a lifestyle I have become accustom to, so much more to show my son. What sort of example would I be to him if I just gave up. I am broke, but I am not on welfare. When he needs, I make a way to give it to him.

This is what is going on in my life right now. You are invited to empathize with me. When I close this chapter of my life you are invited to celebrate with me as well.

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Vera

I can totally empathize with you. I don't have a child, but I call my neice my child. She is my brother's daughter, but he is what she calls a selective parent; he selects when he wants to be there for her. So, of course, I try to take up the slack as much as possible (as if that were actually possible). I was unemployed for over a year and that made me feel as if my world were falling apart. During my unemployment, my grandmother died, my apartment flooded (very, very badly) and I have to leave the NY/NJ area because I could not afford to live there anymore.

So, since I can empathize, I am willing to communicate the things I have done that changed my situation. I am so sorry that your mom threw you and your son out and got rid of your dress clothes. I haven't read your whole blog so I don't know your current living situation, but I do know that after my apartment flooded, going on job interviews seemed impossible. I felt so unstable. How could I sell myself when I was trying to figure out where I was going to live? My clothes were all packed up and I had started gaining weight because the people I was staying with had terrible diets. Sounds like you may still be unemployed, but I am not certain. Check out Aeropostale's web site. They were looking for a web person for quite some time and my understanding is they are great to work for and you can rise through the ranks quickly. Also, get your resume on www.stylecareers.com asap. Make sure it is tight, though, because fashion is very competitive. Also, subscribe to the site so that jobs in your field will be e-mailed to you. Put your resume on monster.com, too. You will get a lot of hits. Can you draw or sketch? Buy a few fashion magazines and sketch some of the girls and what they are wearing. Try to stary putting a portfolio together. I have some other fashion job web sites under my profile, VeeShay, on 43things. If you are interested then look under my entry about starting my fashion business and you will see a list. Whatever you do, don't sell yourself short.

After I lost my job, I was wondering how I was going to continue living in the $1,000/month apartment while drawing unemployment. Even though the flood was a nightmare, I used it as a blessing because it got me out of my lease (after I took the landlord to court, of course). Prayer and dilligence got me from one small victory to the next. Never stop praying because you will never get all the answers on your own. Keep your head held high because you are more than a pay check, and you are not defined by your job. For the moment, I have a job that pays me half of what I was making in New York and I have to live in my brother's home just to make it. I want my life back, but it is taking some time for me to get to where I want to be. As I make this journey, you be encouraged; you will get through this. I wish you the best.
SunShyn

You are strong, you won't be beat...I can't see that happening to you...

You are a good Dad and you are doing right by your son...
brit.

I love the fact that you make things happen for your son. Not many parents care about their children, especially during times of hardship and I respect you for making a way for him. He needs you and I know that you will make it so that you guys can be together under one roof without the constant hassles that you deal with today. *HUGS*.