Some of you have been inquiring about my recent silence and I feel the need to clear the air a bit.
Off topic: In my air Warm Vanilla Sugar scented candle.
Anyway, some of you seem to not understand that sometimes, I just need my space. This time, I just needed more. I don’t feel like talking. I don’t feel like being around people. I just feel like being alone. I thought some of you guys would be (t)here regardless.
Over the last month or so, some of the people closest to me have been taking out their frustrations on me. I guess they forget, I have my own myriad of issues to deal with, which I try very hard not to put off on them. I don’t want them to worry about me, they have enough on their plates.
Yes… I am guilty of neglecting my various social networks. Yes… I have been keeping company and conversing with some new people, a couple of which I think will make great additions to my circle in the long run. It’s just that we don’t have that deep a stake in each other yet… Though it seems they rush more to comfort me than the people who know me. I appreciate it.
The lovely Ms. Janie Jones has been one such friend. She is just there. Makes me smile. We talk about absolutely nothing. She is an example of exactly what I need now. I just need someone to be there when I need them to be.
I am trying to make sense, still, of the clutter in my life and make the necessary trims and alterations. I wish I could accommodate everyone, I know I can’t. I know for better or worse this is where lines will be drawn and crossed. I don’t know what’s in store for me. I am seriously unsure about everything.
Just let me relax. What you do or don’t do these days are being weighed in my mind. I am paying more attention to some things and less to others. Thank you for being there for me. If we’ve come to our fork in the road and it’s time to part ways… I understand… I wish you all the best. I won’t soon forget you.
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