Some people might think that I can be emotional, but for the most part I am a stoic and will only show you or say what I want you to hear or know. I can’t hold it all in after all. I sometimes wish things weren’t like that. I wish I could share more, but with who?
In my perfect world, I am not shy and can speak my mind openly. I don’t have to worry about who will not approve or who might disagree. Unfortunately, a lot of the time I do, Well most of the time I don’t. I am almost completely self contained. I live in my own world. I am learning not to care about certain things.
Even though I might hide it well. I do care. I care about what she thinks, I care about what he thinks, sometimes I care about what you think.
Love is something that escapes me. Why? I am not sure. Maybe due to my shyness. Maybe, I am not making enough connections. Maybe I just don’t feel as though I deserve to be loved. In my dreams, I am lovable. I am worthy.
In my perfect world, love does exist.
In my perfect world, I love you.
In my perfect world, you love me too.
Being a skeptic, It is my nature to question. I can’t merely accept what I can’t see, hear, smell, touch or taste. Can I? Do you blame me?
I am a man, I want these things. I want to love and be loved and to treat you like you deserve to be treated and to be treated like I’d expect to be treated by the one I love and loves me.
I find people want to be and should be treated well. Do you know how to treat people like you want to be treated? A lot of people don’t. I think it should be easy. I am guilty of treating too many people well and not treating the right people well enough. I am sure some of you are too.
In my dreams, we take care of each other. Our hearts share a rhythm, they beat together… sing together… In my dreams, we don’t have to speak… we just know, we communicate with our eyes… our hearts say all that need to be said to each other. We aren’t fighting. We aren’t angry. We just are… together.
Skeptics dream, really we do! Perfect world? Love? Dreams!
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