I have been struggling, increasingly since getting laid off, to find my center. It seems that I am falling more and more out of personal alignment. I am not sure what’s going on.
I don’t have the desire to do anything. I look in the mirror, sometimes I don’t even know who I am. What am I doing?
I haven’t blogged in forever. I have been justifying this with I either don’t have anything to blog about or that I don’t want to fill the blog with negativity, but the truth is, I just don’t have the desire. I guess I am entitled.
There is so much I feel I should be doing. I am not doing any of it. Well, I have made a little bit of forward movement. Just might not be enough for me.
After losing my employment situation, I took a week off or it was forced on me. The news that my job, at least for the time being, was no longer came sudden. I needed a moment to get my head around it and to plan. The following Monday, I went on my first of what is sure to be many interviews. I completed registration I started in May, with an agency that is completely outside of my interests. I guess in these challenging economic times, coverage couldn’t hurt.
On November 22, I went to an open house at Medgar Evers College. I am interested in the Computer Sciences majors, not entirely sure which area but I have narrowed it down to 2 out of 3. I just have to work out some details. If all goes well, I will be enrolled in the Spring 2009 semester.
I am just so fucking off lately. I hope I can realign soon. I don’t want to go through anything unnecessary because I can’t get it together.
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