I know, I know, I suck… I really do have good reason. I have been having a really rough time lately. So much has been going on and I don’t know where to start, not where to start telling but where to position myself to begin getting some of this taken care of.
I have been in almost a dream state. I feel broken, shattered, not whole lately. I have the feeling of things closing in around me, tightening.
I know much of my situation is not my fault, but I wish I would have exercised my enormous wisdom when I was younger. I was “wise beyond (my) years” but never seemed so when it came to my own life.
Anyway, the main reason I haven’t been posting is because of the relationships in my life. I have let many of them fall into my background. There are so many good times, so much laughter, so much happiness… not just the horrors that seem to stay in the front of my mind when I think of certain people, places and things.
Over the last few weeks, I have been nurturing those seemingly dying relationships with family, friends and other once loved ones. My mother, my brothers, my sister and even my son’s mother — I still hate that she looks at me though.
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