Last night, I had a wonderful night out with Tanya. Started out with a movie, Underworld: Rise of the Lycans — As a standalone I think it was alright, but as part of the Underworld trilogy or series, it disappointed me. She always seems to get the giggles when she’s with me. This time holding my pizza like a purse. Afterwards, we went to Better Burger in Chelsea, where we sat and talked for two or so hours.
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Needy
Sunday, January 25th, 20094:17am
Saturday, January 24th, 2009Sipping on a cup of Tazo Calm… Seems my mind is plagued with empty thoughts… Seems the norm recently — Been almost three weeks.
I have been thinking a lot about my situation. I am still out of work, going broke, watching my checking account overdraw everyday. Of all of the people I have help, not the people who are strapped themselves, but the people who I have clearly helped and seen their situations progress, some beyond what mine was are no where to be found. I did not help you for recognition, nor do I want anything from you but a simple how are you today, is there anything I can do would do me very well. At least you cared enough to ask right.
Luckily, I have friends who are interested in how I am doing. Wanting to know if and how I have eaten on a particular day, like yesterday… I know you guys are willing to do what you can to make sure I am OK. Takes too much of who I am to ask or accept, but I appreciate it.
I realize that this will be one of my less memorable posts. Almost completely bereft of passion, devoid of emotion, no feeling what so ever… I really should stop now, shouldn’t I? I don’t have a whole lot of fight in me right now. I am tired.
While some of you will disagree and have chastised me about it, I don’t feel I have anyone to talk to. You guys have so much on your own plates, why overeat, you know? I really don’t want to burden you guys.