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From the beginning, asdf…

Sunday, August 24th, 2008

…jkl; Yeah, I realize that while I may be able to type pretty quickly now, for short bursts, to suit my own purposes anyway, I still need the practice.

I am still not good with the numbers on the keyboard, hell I would like to learn to use the keypad. Worst of all, I seem to freak and my speed takes a huge hit when it counts… like Friday night at work.

I would like to get back to this as soon as possible. Start doing regular drills, start testing myself. No matter how good we might be at anything, practice still keeps us sharp or in this case… on key.

A Skeptic’s Dream

Saturday, August 16th, 2008

Some people might think that I can be emotional, but for the most part I am a stoic and will only show you or say what I want you to hear or know. I can’t hold it all in after all. I sometimes wish things weren’t like that. I wish I could share more, but with who?

In my perfect world, I am not shy and can speak my mind openly. I don’t have to worry about who will not approve or who might disagree. Unfortunately, a lot of the time I do, Well most of the time I don’t. I am almost completely self contained. I live in my own world. I am learning not to care about certain things.

Even though I might hide it well. I do care. I care about what she thinks, I care about what he thinks, sometimes I care about what you think.

Love is something that escapes me. Why? I am not sure. Maybe due to my shyness. Maybe, I am not making enough connections. Maybe I just don’t feel as though I deserve to be loved. In my dreams, I am lovable. I am worthy.

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