I Don't Know

I am lapsed! Lapsed in faith, in judgment, in love… Most of all I have forgotten who I am and become a little of something else.

Today, I show myself… Renewed faith, renewed concern for the details that once defined me and set me apart from others, a new view of who I am, the people around me and the world in general.

I think I have spent my life hiding, from the world and much worse from myself. It’s time to just live, love, and be all that I can be… Me!

See this goal was supposed to be a way to empower myself and not show all my cards. This year, I fell for someone… Well, I fell for several people… Each one harder than the last. The last one seemed as into me as I was her, but for some reason upon closer inspection I was not all that she thought me to be.

I realize that when it came to her. I did contradict who I am a lot. I was, am confused. I shook me to my foundation. As I am just regaining my footing, I realize… I am scared, I am not as strong, I am not prepared for that connection I so desperately desire.

LOL, Keyshia Cole f. Anthony Hamilton – “Losing you” just started playing in iTunes…