I’m getting soft… Ran into my uncle & I don’t hate him anymore. Is that good for him? Or for me? No anger, no negative emotion at all. I was told that my son and my uncle were the only two subjects I showed any emotion towards. The therapist said there was so much contempt & disgust in my face where my uncle was concerned.
I don’t feel that anymore. I don’t feel the need to deal out punishment. He’s still in denial about what he has done to me, to us all, but it isn’t my burden to bear, it’s his. I propose a toast to mental / emotional freedom.
His life seems to be moving in a positive direction. I was resentful at one point because it felt like I struggled all my life and he never put in but is living well, in fact a bit better than I am at the moment. He has help. Seeing him just now, I see a man who is working hard, a man who couldn’t wait to tell me about his accomplishments since I last seen him. He just wanted me to know he’s grown…
With that, I’ve grown a little bit myself. I wish him the best. Could be worse, he could have his hand out or fallen again.
He didn’t make my grandmother smile in life but if she sees him now, I’m sure she’s smiling and recognizes everyone’s part in who he is now.