I Don’t Know

I have decided not to make this unnecessarily long and drawn out. The last couple of weeks have been hell for me. I have been on this on going spiral of waiting and miscommunication. Finally, I have a break. I pretty much smashed the test and they like me. Yesterday, I was a bit bummed because I got hit with a tentative start date of July 11.

I was like what the fuck. That is like a month away and in my mind that’s forever not to mention the position could become unavailable during this time. I would have been out of work for a year, June 26. This afternoon, as I was explaining the situation to my son who is now Plurking, I got a call from my agency notifying me that they just received an email from the company stating that my official start date will be July 7.

This doesn’t seem so far away for me since I guess I know it’s a sure thing at this point. It isn’t the shift that I wanted but I can definitely work around it and make adjustments as needed. Most of all I can start getting ready for my son’s return to school and do something for my birthday.

I haven’t gotten any substantial feedback about the position other than that now they want me to come in for additional one on one training. Does this mean I got the job? Fuck if I know. I am still waiting. They are dragging their feet. I am optimistic though. I think they want to bring me on. I was also told they are trying to get a schedule together.

I am almost sick with the anticipation and have this uneasiness in my chest. I am optimistic though. They are just taking a minute, which I knew they would. I have gone through this enough to know how it goes. I am extra anxious because I called the collection agencies today. I need, I want to get the ball rolling on the remainder of my debt.